i am high on sugar. i ate six cookies. our neighbor gave us homemade cookies for christmas, and they are in the kitchen. i resisted the urge to consume them for a few days, and today i ate some. now i feel guilty and afraid. and high. i also purchased chicken masala at the grocery store. i was craving this chicken masala frozen meal that i like and wanted to see how my body would react to it. so i bought it. but i did not purchase cookies. i am supposedly avoiding dairy, sugar, meat and probably other things too because i am afraid of negative consequences. each time i eat something that my mind wants but my body probably doesn't want, i think 'eating this now will probably increase the likelihood that i am probably going to die alone' [rm]